Eat Shiki Wrath

The Best Friend

2011-03-25T21:30:00.013+08:00

"Do me a favour and act like you are not what everyone deems you to be. The reason why I'm telling you this and so up in the ass about it is because I presume I should be the closest person to you and therefore I will be the first one to tell you this so blantantly to your face."

When I said for you to do me a favour, I am in other words saying to you to goddammit fking listen to me for once in your life and prove to the others wrong about what they are saying about you. Do me that favour if you really view me as your best friend just as I have regarded you all these years. For if you don't start by helping yourself first, don't expect me to either.

Obviously you weren't going to listen again. I wonder why I actually bothered. I wonder why it actually bugs me so much. Instead of trying to see it from my point of view, you aired your grievances to the whole damn world by saying that I didn't defend you and that you would have if the tables had been turned because you trust and believe in me. And if just attacking me alone wasn't satisfying enough for you, you proceeded to dig a deeper hole to drag everyone else down alongside with you.

"You mthrfkers continue to watch and wilt in jealousy wishing you have the same kind of charm and luck to meet the kind of people I know in my life who are hell-bent on pampering me without me wanting or and having the need to ask for it. Just because you would exploit if you are in my position doesn't mean everyone else will do the same. And guess what? That's why you are NOT in my position."

Well done man. Well done.

Do you seriously think that highly of yourself?

Is being labeled a gold-digger an achievement to be proud of?

Have you ever taken a step back to re-examine yourself instead since everyone seems to think of you the same way?

Do you know the real reason why they are not in your position?

That's because they are choosing not to be.

Do you honestly honestly think that the rest of the other girls are lacking in suitors because they are uglier than you? Take for instance a newspaper report about dozens of men being swindled by 1 woman. More often than not most people's first reaction would be that the woman was not even pretty to begin with and yet she managed to amass a bunch of men who would give up the world just for her.

"I'm not taking his money to spend on my shopping. It's just for my hotel accommodation."

Seriously, how much difference does that make?

"I'm not borrowing money from him. I think I told you before but you may have missed it but he was already planning to fund my whole trip from the start."

Does that actually make you feel better? It's as good as saying it's your prerogative to spend his cash just because you're his girlfriend is it not?

"I have decided that I'm going to fool around until he proves himself worthy."

All this just because he told you not to cut your hair? Telling him to draft an exit plan out of the relationship if he only likes you for your looks? But weren't your looks the one thing that you're truly proud of? The asset that has elevated you to your "gold-digging" achievements which you embrace so dearly? The reason to everyone's wilting in jealousy?

You know what pisses everyone off? It's the fact that you totally have no regard for the well-being of your partner. I asked you why did you let him pay for your hotel accommodation when I offered you my place to stay since you didn't have the money to pay for it in the first place. You answered, "then you expect me to lie to him or be rude if he asks?"

You're not answering my question the way I asked it. And why are you being defensive if you really feel you are doing the right thing?

Stop being so self-centered.

That was the last thing I said to you.

You turned a supposedly happy occasion of welcoming an old friend back from overseas into a funeral by breaking down and sobbing at the table in full view of public, displaying your discontent at some teasing and bullying from a colleague, when there were people present at that very same table who were going through a lot worse things in life but yet chose not to air their problems as they did not want to upset everyone else's mood and take the focus out of the celebration.

The night when we were all supposed to meet for a late night dinner that was pre-planned 3 weeks in advance and that was to become the night I got proposed to, I said to you, "I understand that you're not feeling well but I hope that you can still come."

I was worried. I was upset. I confided in you. You told me you didn't want to spend the money to cab down just to have a dinner. You said you wouldn't be eating anyway.

Last week after the devastating earthquake in Japan, I had alot of concerned people asking about my wellbeing. I have to admit that I was scared as well but I reassured everyone that things were fine to avoid them worrying too much for me because it's just too much for me to handle. So I turned to you for support. I spoke about the real dangers and the actual situation here. You said you were very sad because Japan is your favourite place. You said you were planning to postpone your shopping trip here. You said you were eating alot these days. You said you were fat.

So what else did you say? You said you bet those people meant nothing to you. And if they did, then they would weigh alot lesser now. Funny how you should say that when you were the one who came crying to me when some guy you just met didn't want to be your friend anymore. You told me you were upset about losing a friend and yet now you're so quick to lash out and drop those very people who were genuinely your friends. People who were genuinely concerned for you from the bottom of their hearts. People who were asking why you are behaving the way you are now and how different you are from the person they first got to know. That was the last straw for me.

Let's face it. You admitted you weren't into this guy but you went ahead with it as you felt you had a lot to learn from him, he had a stable career, he knows what he wants in the future, he just bought a new house, he's perfect husband material. Fair nuff.

You refused to get back with your ex claiming that although you loved him alot more, however he didn't possess any form of qualifications, he was too stupid, he could never afford to marry you. Fair nuff.

I told you time and time again to seriously consider about your future as you are no longer young and have yet to find someone to settle down with. Nobody likes the idea of growing old and dying alone. "I'm not going to marry. Marriage scares me" was your reply. So then if you have no intention whatsoever of marrying this guy you are dating now, then DON'T take his money.

Don't string them along if you have no intention of being together with them. Don't put yourself in a compromising position. Don't come complaining to me about things not going your way. Don't come crying to me when something happens after you didn't listen to my advice to you. How many times have I gone out to meet you in the middle of the night to hear you bitch and cry and pour your heart to me? How many times have I advised and forseen some outcomes for you? I'm not a seer to predict your future nor do I give the best advice in the world but know that all those times whenever you shed a tear, my words to you were always in your best interests.

... So I'll tell you now. It's because I don't believe nor trust whatever you say now. I gotta say that I agree with everyone else. The way you've been acting and the state that you've deteriorated to. I find it hard to believe that you're the same person I met years ago that I've come to care so much for.

If you really think that I would still side you regardless of whether you were wrong or right based on the fact that you're my best friend, it just goes to show that you still don't know me well enough. That's probably because it was always about you in all the past conversations we had. Each time I attempted to tell you about a problem I was facing, it will always change to how you are not anywhere far off or worse than me.

When it comes to Japan, shopping, men and your own money, you act like you have no friends. All your bitching was just to garner support and sympathy or to insinuate to the world how desirable you are to all the men out there. You have absolutely no plans whatsoever to solve your own problems. You're just sitting there hoping to get the best out of everything without even doing anything. And if all else fails, you know that you will have your backup plans of smitten men who are hell-bent on catching you when you fall.

Earning 3k a month to give to your family and finding a man who will support you or your family for the rest of your lives? Take a step down from your pedestal and get your head out of the clouds. It's marring your vision.

With that said, I think I've had about enough.

I think once is enough

2011-02-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps,

I know I haven't been updating this blog for a really, really long time. So I thought I'll start again. (though I don't think I can update it regularly)

Well, lots of things have changed of late. I think by now most of you would have probably known that I'm currently residing in Tokyo. I swear that learning a new language has got to be the most painful thing ever. I was even thinking of picking up French after Japanese but I'm really having second thoughts about it now lol.

I think the worst thing about conversing in the language here is that the Japanese are way too polite to correct your mistakes even when you let them know prior that you'd appreciate it. I've been doing self study every single day. In the mornings before work starts, during lunch breaks and after work. It's awfully painful.

It doesn't really help much that I'm an introvert to begin with so I don't speak much to my colleagues and they don't speak much to me either. Hell, they don't even speak to the French dude next to me although he's a grad from Waseda University and speaks fluent Japanese. Sometimes I wonder if they have this... I wouldn't exactly call it a dislike for foreigners but more of like they tend to shun things that are non-Japanese, preferring to stick to "safe" boundaries. I don't know I get that kinda vibes.

Next week, Arnie is coming to look for me and subsequently 2 weeks later the Drumma Queen. I think I haven't been able to be myself all this time here so I'm looking forward to seeing them and making some noise. I'm starting to worry that I may have forgotten how to speak English altogether now.

Come next week I'll probably have some pics to upload but in the meantime, I need to head back to my books.

めんどうくせな。。。

The Hidden Sky Garden Clan

2010-03-01T15:17:00.006+08:00

I know it's been a while since my last entry but many things have been happening of late. But anywayz, I was out with the Drumma Queen over the weekend and our theme for the day was 'SAMURAI'. We kinda caused a little commotion in town due to the samurai sword umbrellas we were carrying around with us. But it's all good! I probably hit a couple of ppl in the face whenever I turned around but after that it seemed like I had a lot of space around me wherever I walked. So here are the results of our vanity:

We rock.

I am... Sasaki Kojiro. Nyahaha~

Beggar Samurai.

Drumma Queen always has to make a statement.

Kek. That was some fun shit. Gotta do it again sometime.

Always A First

2009-11-17T01:22:00.010+08:00

I'm not exactly a normal guy's idea of a typical kind of girl. The most common question I get most of the time is whether I'm really of the fairer sex, but usually they conclude that I'm a man trapped in a woman's body.

1. I eat more than most other guys out there.

2. I swear alot more than most average guys too. (Vocab expands when in close contact with Drumma Queen)

3. I don't fancy jewellery nor branded goods.

4. I rather spend my time in front of a cpu playing a game than walk around and shop.

If there's anything I still have in common with my fellow species, it has got to be flowers. I've always wanted to receive a bouquet of roses from some smitten guy who actually thinks that I'm worth it to spend his hard earned cash on some useless yet expensive plants.

Would you believe me if I told you I've never received one in all of my life?

I don't freaking believe it either lol.

There's always a first for everything.

Thanks for making my day and believing that I'm worth it.

Bye Bye

2009-11-05T18:09:00.006+08:00

September 11 will never be the same again. It had never meant much to me, that is until I crashed and burned that fateful day.

Mariah Carey sang a song after that day. Drumma Queen had sent it to me, she knows me best. So I'm sharing it here. I guess it's my way of letting go.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong you'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

Sweet Dreams Are Made of These

2009-09-08T00:10:00.018+08:00

This year's bday was a little different from the past. I thought I'd hang out the night before with a bunch of gal pals at some new club in town.

Tried my hand at pole dancing.

But I think Mabel's friends did better.

Ppl in the smoking room were, I think the most pissed drunk of the lot cos they started singing and planting kisses on my hand wishing me a happy birthday. Another guy was also celebrating his bday. His name's Ashwin so they sang bday songs for 2 Ashes.

And just when the happy hour for ladies was over, I had the luck of conning a guy to buy me drinks for the rest of the night as well as give me a free cab ride home.

So I went home to open up my omelette present with the oh so lovely card.

It's the Chrome Hearts furry wallet I've always wanted but nv bought cos it was too expensive.

I knew there'd be some catch to it.

I want to thank from the bottom of my heart the 5 who burnt a hole in their pockets for the spoilt little ol' me.

Sakazaki - For noticing the hole in my current wallet and for never losing her temper at me whenever I'm selfish. And for lending me her lighters all the time. I've been a real ass at times but u nv seem to mind so I will continue to abuse you. That's what nan rens are for.

Drumma Queen - For noticing the shape of my face pressed on the Chrome Hearts wallets' glass display cabinet everytime we step in the shop. And for putting up with my nonsense all this while but sorry to say that it's not going to stop anytime soon.

Felicia - For being the best work partner I've ever had and covering up for me. And also for trying to make me feel better everytime I bomb money into HDB telling me I've got assets. I wish the assets were on my chest instead tho.

Frankie - For being the most unexpected contributor to the present. Did Drumma Queen put you up to this? With a knife to your throat? Or a curse that your dick will fall off or bleed when u pee? Thank you nevertheless.

Feudie - I know you forked out the most for this. I also know you probably didn't even know what you were paying for but still went ahead with it cos I have your WoW account password.

I can't thank you guys enough.

The best part of the day? Enjoying brunch with Feudie on a lazy rainy afternoon.

I wouldn't trade that for anything else in the world.

Back Again

2009-08-11T23:31:00.011+08:00

I guess most of you guys already know by now that I'm back on WoW. I managed to find some time off tonight to rant a little (ok the server's down tonight). I'm not particularly pleased that it's taking up a bulk of my free time but it is really good to see everyone once again. I do miss the old 5v5 team but Notus chats me up over msn while I'm at work and starts debates over Street Fighter 4 that sometimes I feel like smashing my keyboard in the process of talking to him that I think maybe I don't miss him so much anymore.

Few weeks back, by some miracle we managed to get Doc the Hermit to spawn at our kopi session. He looks like a hippie now with the long hair and all. But that was just that one rare moment and after that he disappeared back into his hermit hole again and the kopi sessions that followed were pleasant chit chats with Locksmith. Now we're trying to get Nda out as well if his busy work schedule allows it.

Anyway work has been a circus of late. The crazy guy that got the sack weeks back, well they hired him back cos he screwed up the server so bad no one else could salvage it (correction: no one else that gets paid as little as him). He was going around taking upskirt pics of the girls in the office and when he got called into the director's office for it, he told them his dream was to go to Japan and be a porn star (/facepalms).

Ima go lie down now and indulge in my weekly face mask session. Aah.. I look so forward to this after gym every week.

I always feel so different after face mask sessions.

Teamwork

2009-07-14T23:21:00.006+08:00

So we were having a birthday celebration in the office pantry today and I made a beeline for the prawn sticks at the refreshments area after the candle blowing was done. A colleague and I picked up a stick each but she changed her mind and put it back on the platter. She turned to me and said, "I can't finish it, I'll share yours."

To which I replied, "But I can. I'm not sharing." She protested with a "Are you sure you can finish that by yourself?" (It's only 4 puny shrimps man) before storming out of the pantry and QQing to her boyfriend, who also happens to be my boss.

After I had settled back down in my seat, she exclaimed aloud, "I don't understand why some ppl bother going to the gym when they eat so much. It doesn't mean that if you go to the gym, you can eat more."

She has serious issues man.

My boss is always rapping to me about teamwork and here I have someone in the team who holds a grudge against me over a prawn stick. I swear I hate working with couples who work together.

Screw that teamwork bullshit.

Here comes the bride...

2009-06-11T00:40:00.014+08:00

All dressed in white.

With the big backside.

That's right. By the time you read this, I've already dumped Arthur and eloped with Arthas to Northrend. Arthur... Arthas... whatever. You guys should have seen it coming when I posed for pics with the Lich King's helm back last year.

Arthas promised to name a mace "The Unstoppable Force" after my butt and let me sit on the Frozen Throne. I'm so touched...

That I'm touching myself.

Hee Hee I kid.

Fooled ya.

You didn't think it was real did ya?

It was just a little photoshoot, but I hope you guys liked it. Just a momento keepsake (in case I never ever do get married at the rate the procedure to get a house here is going.)

Humph.

It's a Saturday!

2009-06-06T11:51:00.012+08:00

Good Riddance

The creepy guy at work finally got the boot. I think all the girls are relieved about that. He was going around with a video camera around his neck filming ppl in their faces and thinking he's British, to the extent of adorning his cubicle with Brit flags. The last time he told someone that he spent XXX pounds on his camera, the person replied him curtly while patting his tummy, "Yea I got 200 pounds here".

When his video camera got confiscated during an event, he wrote a complaint letter, attached the director's picture in it and sent it to whole management, and copied the prime minister in it. I LOLed when I first heard about it. This guy is seriously giving Luci a run for his money.

Good riddance. I hope they sack the guy who hired him in the first place too. Retard.

:(
Feudie got stung by a bee the day before. His elbow's all swollen now it's starting to look like some abomination. He doesn't want to go see a doctor cos he says it'll go away, but I'll drag him down to one if it doesn't get any better.

It's the weekend again WOOT

We were over at a friend's office last night slugging it out over Street Fighter 4. They had a water dispenser full of beer I think we could use that too in our office.

It was great seeing Sock again. He says he's tempted to play back WoW too. Back then we'd always watch him do BWL in the lanshop (and he has the Qiraji mount!)

Eu, the man slut and his BFF.

Street Fighter Beer Fest

When there's a PSP, there's always cam whores!

Slack Mode

2009-05-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

It's finally over! The damn event's finally over! 2 and a half days of off in lieu. I'm scheming how best to abuse it so I can have an ultra long weekend off. I'm so looking forward to Friday. It's pay day! /prance

I've been playing a bit of Feudie's DK for some instances and to be honest, I don't know what on earth I'm pressing.

"Just press 1 & 2 & F4 and F5." Feudie instructs. "If there's multiple mobs, press 5 & 6. And if all the buttons are on cooldown, keep spamming deathcoil." Then he goes off to shower and I'm stuck there with a bunch of cows in the instance, a level 80 noob. Everything's so alien. I was getting a little perplexed while smacking one boss until the healer died. Seeing the familiar Angel of Redemption made me feel alot better.

At least there's something I still recognise. And no I don't know how to play a DK still. I just bash lighted buttons.

Updates as of 5th May 2009

2009-05-05T22:50:00.007+08:00

Gym Junkie
I am back! From the gym! And I have with me! *drumrolls*

A siiiiiiiix pack! (oOoOoooo.....!) And I can imagine Echie rubbing his tummy and going 'I have a slab' as I say this right now :P

My diligent weekly visits to the beef club has been paying off. I plan to look like Madonna who has been my inspiration all these while. Guy Ritchie says it's like hugging an Olympian triathelete to bed every night. That's some kinky shit they have there.

Ok, I jest. I'm just trying to keep myself toned and hopefully fit into a pair of shorts I had so stubbornly bought a size smaller. To be honest, the button came off but I swear it had nothing to do with me trying to squeeze into it. Everytime my parents do laundry, I either get a different coloured shirt back or something missing from it. So anyway, I just want to be able to fit into it comfortably and not look like some pork roast.

Btw someone tossed me a free can of diet coke today and I thought of Effie and his mega quarter pounder, large fries, nuggets on the side & yes... the diet coke. Somehow it just seems... not so guilty when you have a diet coke to wash it all down so I realised.

Work Work
Stuff's been slowing down a little but I'm still not spared the nagging from my boss. He's overly paranoid I wish he'd ease up a little. When I say ease up, I'm referring to his nagging and not work (cos we got shit loads to do for the upcoming big event). Because I freaking hell turned around and found him busy photoshopping his fugging wallpaper, adding a baby panda into the bg for finishing touches ))#*Y%*H@)*%&@)*&%@!

"Nice?" he asks me, flashing a toothy grin, obviously proud of his masterpiece.

I am so not amused.

WoW
Wow. WoW's changed alot since the last time I remembered it. Watching Feudie level his DK, (I helped create his BE studmuffin btw) I feel like a noob everytime I ask him what the alien looking thing was. The other night he was using Symphonia's pally for arena, I tried to get some sleep by stuffing rolled up tissue papers into my ears to block out his cussing and shouting, as well as the rogue stabbing sounds and whatever Ararara Shaman bloodlust & pally HOJs etc. Even adding another layer of a pillow and blankie over my head couldn't shut out the stupid DK horse everytime he mounts when the arena door opens. I sat up in bed and watched a couple of fights and couldn't help but think about my priest. I am slightly tempted no doubt, but I am too bloody lazy so I went back to sleep. Which I succesfully did until Feudie started shouting, "I BUBBLED! I BUBBLED!"

Bloody hell. To hear someone screaming about bubbles at 1am in the morning. What will my neighbours think...

Anyway here's pics from my Dad's bday about 2 months back in March. Just got it not long ago from my sis.

Clockwise from left: Sis, Cousin, Mum, me & Dad

And here's to Dark Ronin :D

/Wrist

2009-04-25T09:14:00.007+08:00

Work has more or less taken center stage in my life at the moment. With my team mate away on a month long exam leave, I have been left to hold off invading forces in the office battlefield. It is manageable but nevertheless still hard, especially when some ppl give you unnecessary stress.

Just the other day someone asked me how many zeroes were there in a million. Is that a trick question? I wondered if the person had downs or was just out to annoy me at a time when every tick of the clock was precious to me.

Six I replied. Oh ok she went. I felt like cutting my wrist.

Which leaves me with chair gnawing but my boss doesn't seem to agree with my stress relief methods.

Encounters of the Other Kind

2009-04-12T03:25:00.003+08:00

Every Wednesday nights after class, I walk past Orchard Towers on the way to the train station to catch a ride home. Each time, I'd hasten my footsteps and shuffle through the hordes of ppl who have gathered around the building, trying my best to stay out of trouble.

It works... at least for a while.

I usually manage to walk past the stretch of skimpily clad women and well dressed men in nicely pressed shirts, before I get stopped in my path by some stranger, always a man in executive attire.

The first time, it was an Indian chap who volunteered to walk me to the station. Try as I may, I couldn't shake him off. My paranoia told me that ppl were staring, but Mr Volunteer just rambled on like we were long lost buds. After an agonising escort to the station, he antagonises me further by asking for my number to keep in contact. I flatly declined. He proceeds to question why not and that was when I curtly told him I was not interested and he bade me farewell with a 'It was great knowing you'.

The second time, I made it alittle further before I got stopped again, this time a Chinese lad in smart executive attire as well. He was very shy and stammered as he asked nervously if we could be friends and exchange numbers. I declined politely but just told him my name when he introduced himself.

The third encounter left me somewhat traumatised. I was having dinner at a cafe nearby when he sat down on the same table and asked if I was interested in taking up a job. He proceeded to describe in detail everything the job requires as though he was a voice recorder on fast forward. I caught bits and pieces of it such as condoms, make love, massage, g-strings, hand jobs, blowjobs. The rest I don't really want to remember. I wanted to dig a hole in the ground and hide when he proclaimed to the waiter that he works as a pimp. When he was finally done, he handed me a namecard and told me to call him if I needed anything, afterwhich he paid for my dinner and offered to pay for my cab fare home for taking up my time. I refused. I was too turned off to even finish my dinner. I only finished my drink in the hopes of washing it all down.

For all these, I blame Feudie. Cos I'm still reeling from the fact that he broke a date with me to go gaming with his gay buddy, the newly recruited gym instructor.

Just when the DR guildies used to think he favoured small boys, sad to tell you all now he's into buff bods.

Updates as of 5 April 09

2009-04-04T13:34:00.005+08:00

Relocation to a new office
1 hr + journey. Smack in the mid of an overcrowded residential hub at the other end of SG. 3 ppl sharing a 2 and a half ppl's desk space.

Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, the snail slurper comes along and goes," Wah you got such a big desk area to yourself."

No you dickhead, I'm sharing the desk with 2 other ppl. He then throws me a look of pity and adds on," Oh... then it's very small and open leh."

In my heart, I prayed to the gods to grant me the willpower to not sock him in the kisser there and then. My mind was telling me otherwise.

Looking around, I realised that on my left and front sat a dept I have always preferred not to come into contact with. On my right was my naggy direct supervisor (in between my team mate and I) and diagonally across, I could see someone I... don't even want to see to begin with.

And then one of the SOPs for the new place states:
e.) ... are required to scan their figures upon leaving...

Nice. I wonder how my butt is gonna fit into the scanner thingy at the door.

Housing Loan
We are short by 140k. Now to wait for the official housing board letter to come in and then start robbing banks.

Health
My back was giving me some problems for a while so I went to get it checked at a place near my work area. I yelped when the therapist started pressing the lower back. I think I scared the rest of the patients. So here's my diagnosis (just based on the massaging from the therapist):

1.) The veins on the neck & back area are "knotted". It is due to my long hours in front of the cpu.
2.) My body is very heaty. She recommends I should go to bed latest at 11pm every night.
3.) I do not get enough deep slumber sleep. The body is short of rest therefore it doesn't recuperate.
4.) I have digestion problems, so sometimes I experience discomfort and bloating after eating.

I gotta say she's pretty good. The back feels a lot better now :D I should try to sleep earlier like she recommended.

Good Things Don't Last Forever

2009-04-04T10:58:00.022+08:00

02 April 09

The dreaded day finally came. It was time for us to leave the place we had come to call our second home. No more stairway smokebreaks. No more peanut butter waffles from the bubble tea store. And no more crazed housewives marching up to the office demanding their hacked MapleStory accounts restored. I'll definitely miss this place.

And she just had to look up when I clicked.

My pretty team mate.

Drumma Queen came to extra.

Damn ape.

Ok fine. I'll take a nice picture with you.

I said nice picture you doofus.

There... ain't that better?

What's left of my seat.

Bye Bye Singpost :'(

The 3 Golden Rules

2009-03-24T13:25:00.002+08:00

I have been awfully busy with work of late. Not to mention being dirt poor too.

After paying off the house's option fee earlier in the month, I've been left to eat grass for the remainder of the days. Buying a home in SG is like selling your soul to the housing board.

Speaking of which, after reading Feudie's post on rules for the kids, I've decided to do a list of my 3 Golden Rules for the new place.

1. No smoking in the house. - My dad smokes in the house and although I'm a smoker myself, I do not fancy the lingering scent of stale cigarettes on the furniture and whatever toxic gas that emits from the toilet whenever he emerges from it. Smoke in the balcony dammit.

2. If the pizza in the fridge is not yours, do not eat it. (or face Shiki Wrath for the next 3 days) - I bear pizza grudges. My dad used to say, "What's so nice about pizza" everytime I order home delivery but I always come home to find the pizza gone. For that, I've developed an extremely possessive attitude towards pizza, more so if it is pepperoni.

3. No activities that involves noise before 12pm. - No vacuuming, blasting of radio, arguing, re-arrangement of pots & pans etc. Being woken up early in the morning on your rest day by squabbling parents, you think that's bad enuff. Until you find out what they were arguing about in the first place - frying rice. Goddamit.

A New Home

2009-03-13T11:59:00.002+08:00

The wait has been agonising. The letter had finally arrived 3 weeks back and we have successfully booked a unit on the 36th floor of the much coveted public housing to date.

Now we wait again for the approval of the loan to go through. I can't wait.

No more ruckus from the drunk faggots downstairs my current place.

No more waking up to parents' incessant arguments.

No more horn honking from the karang guni man.

Being right smack in the middle of town.

I'm so going to be broke T_T

>.>

2009-03-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their own preferences. In my case for men, I prefer them Asian. Maybe cos they are more likely to share the same kind of traditions & beliefs, and I am alot more comfortable with that.

Friday night I was walking along Orchard and this Indian guy offered to walk me to the station in exchange for my number. I declined.

Now on Facebook there's a black guy by the name of (something) da Rapper who wants a friend add. I declined. (I don't rap yo)

Come to think of it, the very last time before Friday night's incident that someone tried to pick me up was many years ago. He was a black guy who wanted me to join him for drinks at his table at a coffee shop near Hotel Rendezvous. I declined.

I have concluded... I seem to be attractive only to black men. Which brings me to wonder why haven't a single Asian guy try to pick me up at all in the past years O.o

I must be losing my mojo.

No Luck

2009-02-12T15:14:00.003+08:00

"Lighter." I said as I held up a hand demanding for a light as though a yakuza lord to his subordinates. In my case however, my "subordinates" shot me a frown of disapproval and cursed.

"Knn." They grumbled as they dug into their pockets.

I have no luck with lighters. For some strange phenomenal reason, they seem to elude me the same way lottery numbers do. Each time I'd leave them sitting on my room's window ledge at home & forget to bring them out with me. I have to resort to helping myself shamelessly to Sakazaki's or Drumma's Queen's lighters.

Today will be different so I thought. I finally remembered to bring one out today but the problem was that I had run out of cigs.

Got a light, but got nothing to light it up with... Brilliant.

So when I finally sat down on the stone bench at our usual smoking corner with a pack of cigs, I pulled out my trusty lighter and proudly showed it off to Sakazaki.

And then...

Fuck this shit.

Letting Go

2009-02-09T02:02:00.009+08:00

Sometimes you have to lose something so that better things may come your way.

And sometimes, those better things have already entered your life but you have yet to open up your heart to realise it.

Be strong. Grow from the experience & you will learn to love again. You deserve a lot more than just false hopes & empty promises.

I will be here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on.

"Never date a man who is rude to the waiter."

I am lucky. Feudie has always been polite to the waiter...
But that is bcos he is afraid the waiter will ge liao in his food.

Shikipedia

2009-02-01T22:30:00.009+08:00

So I got this email the other day about horoscopes and here's what it says about my zodiac sign.

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. (Hmm... I dunno man)
Conservative. (I guess so)
Always wants the last word. (True that)
Argumentative. (Amen)
Worries. (Bingo again)
Very smart. (No leh)
Dislikes noise and chaos. (Affirmative. Unless it's music, if not I'll classify anything else as noise)
Eager. (Hrmm... don't think I'm an eager beaver)
Hardworking. (So damn... wrong...)
Harsh. (Don't give face)
Easy to talk to. (Could say that)
Hard to please. (Correcto.)
Beautiful. (/shy)
Often shy (/shy)
Practical and very fussy. (Especially when it comes to food)
Pessimistic. (Ya, until now I still think I'm gonna get my tio pok letter)

Somewhat accurate I suppose. Which leads me to think about my own personality so I hereby pen it down here in case I go senile one day and forget about the kind of person I really am, so I can refer back here as reference. (Provided I can remember about this blog in the first place). In no particular order, just what comes to mind so here goes:

1. I hate mornings. I don't like light in my face.
2. I'm an introvert. I don't enjoy socializing or engaging in activities.
3. I don't like to accommodate people, unless they're very good friends.
4. I only enjoy being in the company of Feudie & close friends. If I can't be with them, then I'd rather be alone with cigarettes & beer.
5. I am very resistant to change.
6. I do not like to use my brain much. If it requires alot of thinking, I'll avoid it. (No RTS for me tyvm)
7. I am getting forgetful. I know the answer. It's at the back of my mind somewhere but somehow I just forgot. I didn't mean to. I'm sorry >< (Teal & Grapes... Teal & Grapes... Teal & Grapes)
8. My secret ambition is to be a yakuza boss' daughter. (well, it ain't a secret anymore) 9. I've always wanted to have super powers.
10. I live to eat, not eat to live.
11. My fav no. is 14. It is the jersey no. of my fav character in Slamdunk.
12. I've been wanting to create an encyclopedia called the Shikipedia to record the A-Zs of my life. I am afraid of forgetting myself and being forgotten.
13. I want to go to Hokkaido & smoke while soaking in the hot springs with the monkeys.
14. I take pleasure in bullying Drumma Queen. Please refer to below examples:

The art of discreet rib elbowing.
(Oof she says)

Just when u think it's over. In comes the elusive waist poking.
(Wahaha she says)

Here's ending this post (cos I'm too lazy to think anymore & I want to sleep) with words of wisdom from yours truly. As alot of things have been happening of late, I've been thinking alot as well.

Life is too short & too fragile. For all the people I care about & who takes the time to bother to read my nonsense here, my wish is for all of you is to please take good care of yourselves.

Once is enough.

Dreamer

2009-01-11T23:57:00.004+08:00

I've always been a dreamer, whether asleep or not.

The nightmares of late have left me tired both mentally & physically, and I noticed that only when I'm utterly exhausted from the sleepless nights then do the nightmares cease when I fall right asleep the moment I close my eyes.

There was a nightmare where owls flocked the dark red tainted skies. Another one had my sister stapling my head. The 3rd one I remembered more vividly was being in a room full of lamps & lights and the wall had dozens of switches. I turned every switch on but was unable to light up the one lamp I wanted lit.

On another wall hung a huge portrait of a dog & woman wading in water. Then the portrait came to life & I became a part of it. The dog swam over to the woman & lunged at her throat killing her, then it proceeded to swim towards me. I struggled with the dog then I woke up in the room of lights with the same dog sitting next to me on the bed, its tail brushing against my nose.

A Malay guy entered the room and placed his hand on my thigh and I brushed him away. Then Feudie entered the room and angrily told the guy to get out. Then I woke up for real.

Drumma Queen interpreted most of the dream for me but she couldn't figure out the last part. She guessed it as RF treatment didn't work and that I needed Malay massage for my slim thighs. -_-;

I hope I get a dreamless sleep tonight.

So Long Dear Friend

2009-01-09T01:33:00.017+08:00

01 January 2009
I will never forget that day for the rest of my life.

Feudie, Enphesis, Sakazaki, Drumma Queen and I were out celebrating New Year's Day at La ViVa bar at CHIJMES over drinks & card games. Midnight had passed & we were popping confetti, blowing noisemakers and just soaking in the atmosphere. Little did I know about the chain of events that were to unfold from that night on.

02 January 2009
I was making my way home after work & looking forward to the weekend that had just begun. Feudie called while I was on the train to tell me that Zalhera had gone missing during the Bangkok fire accident that broke out 2 nights ago. I had heard about it in the news but it never occured to me that Zal could have been at that exact same location although I was aware that he was in Thailand. I hung up the phone worried but I was pretty sure Zal could take care of himself and that he'd be fine. Friends reassured me that he was probably in shock somewhere and he'd show up soon. I took comfort in their words but nevertheless, Zal's dissappearance lingered in my mind.

03 January 2009
I woke up to a phone call from Drumma Queen, reminding me that I was supposed to meet her in the afternoon for an appointment together. Before I left home, I grabbed the newspapers in the living room and made my way to the station. I arrived earlier than her so I took the time to flip through the pages to try to find some updates on the Bangkok incident.

And there it was, Zal's picture & the article that followed shook me. "Missing" it read. As I scrutinized the article, the word 'grim' bit into my heart. I cried.

I had refused to believe he was unaccounted for until that moment in time.

04 January 2009
I stared in disbelief at the SMS Storm had sent me. I felt a rancid feeling surge up my throat and my vision blurred from the tears welling up in my eyes. I couldn't peel my eyes away from the message & my mind went blank, unable to process the information.

Elliot didn't make it. The last unidentified body is him... dna confirmed...

I dialed Storm's number on the phone, hoping against hope that there must have been a huge mistake somewhere. I only remembered screaming into the phone & hearing Storm's voice breaking as he relayed the news once again.

I couldn't believe it.

I just didn't want to believe it.

05 January 2009
I woke up feeling dazed but somehow managed to grudgingly lug myself to the office . Upon entering the office, I picked up the morning papers when passing by the magazine rack and sat down in my seat.

Even then, I was still in denial. I was hoping for a miracle... hoping & hoping that it was all but a long bad dream.

I sobbed as I read the first paragraph. I didn't finish reading the article.

07 January 2009
It is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.

Seeing Zal's portrait & his clothes draped over the chair. The familiar long sleeved Billabong shirt which he had liked to wear, his faded jeans & his running shoes. The brown coffin lay a distance behind, a bouquet of chrysanthemums sat on it.

I looked over at Feudie and wondered how he must be feeling. It's a Chinese belief that the older generation are not allowed to see off the deceased if the deceased is younger, therefore Feudie and some others could only stand behind and watch while those who were younger or of the same age as Zal offered incense & prayers.

One by one they made their way to the altar and planted their joss sticks into the ash laden urn, I was the last. My body had refused to move.

Never in my life would I have thought that I'd be attending Zal's wake. It just seems so surreal.

The Past
10 year ago, the bunch of us used to play Counterstrike at a lanshop called Cyberian City at Hotel Rendezvous. Their clan was [Ronin]. I was from [CsN] but everyone knew one another as we play frequently together. [Ronin] was a tight bunch of friends. I'd often see them together and everytime the lanshop closed shop at 3am, we'd all gather outside and mingle around until we were either too tired and headed home or continued the Counterstrike marathon when CC opened its doors again for business at 7am. This practice ceased when CC shut down a few years later due to slow business & fierce competition from other lan shops that mushroomed around the area. Even then, I'd run into [Ronin] at nearby lanshops once in a while.

Few years back, Feudie & I were picking up the new KOFXI game at Suntec arcade & we ran into Zalhera by chance. It so happened that he was learning the game too & we met often to play against one another. Zal enjoyed the game so much that he imported a 2nd hand arcade machine from Taiwan and had it shipped to his home. We' d often bunk over at his place on weekends after the arcade closed & continued our grudge matches until wee hours in the morning, often abusing his PS3, desktop & bed in the process.

In the mornings, his mum would buy breakfast for us and after which, we'd be recharged & energized once again to continue more unsettled matches from the night before. Feudie & Zal often disagreed over the "logics" of KOF & they'd get into heated arguements all the time. It was annoying listening to them squabble and sometimes they'd be so engrossed that they'd walk on ahead, forgetting about me & leaving me trailing behind.

When Tatakai visited us in Singapore, we rented a chalet at Pasir Ris & Zal borrowed his parents' car to ferry us about. He even brought his PS3 to the chalet so we could continue slugging it out over KOFXI. In the mornings, I had to wake everyone up as we were lagging behind on our schedule & had to resort to whacking them awake with pillows. Zal & Symphonia had it the worst from me as they refused to budge. They'd eventually wake up giggling hysterically & lock me out of the room & continue to sleep & I'd attempt to bang the door down.

We tried to play the World of Warcraft boardgame and ended up breaking all the rules. Tat, Feudie & I kept jumping & stealing Zal & Symph's quests. We played it until 4am in the morning and finally called it quits when everyone was too tired to continue. I have never laughed so hard over a boardgame before.

Zal started playing WoW on our server to join me & Feudie although the rest of the Ronin guys were on another server. He picked up the game quickly & soon he was my arena partner together with Locksmith in 3v3s. There was a match I remembered very vividly as we were laughing uncontrollably throughout on Skype.

We had managed to take down one guy from the opponent team but unfortunately Locksmith went down as well. Zal & I fought on for another 15mins but it was still a stalemate. The opposing team grew tired of chasing me & they switched their attention to Zal, who distracted them long enough to buy me time to res Locksmith. When Lock came back into the match, he ended it within seconds. We jokingly told Zal that he sucked and he replied laughing, "Yea I suck." We made a good 3s team.

We'd stay up late into the night playing BGs & practised covering each other. Zal was a good team player as he often watched out for team mates. Sometimes, we'd get fraustrated over arena losses but I rarely saw him lose his temper. Even if he did, I couldn't tell. He was always chirpy & good tempered, smiling most of the time.

Sometimes, we'd chat in WoW when we were waiting for BG Qs or had nothing else to do. He'd complain to me about Feudie when they have their "couple" disagreements and I'd always tell him to stop acting gay.

One time late into the night, we were having one of these chats and he told me that if I weren't attached, he would go after me. But I know that's cos we shared similar interests and he would have liked for his girlfriend to be sharing the same sentiments for the the things he loved doing.

We shared a common love for Japan and he had wanted me & Feudie to join him & his family on a trip to Hokkaido. We didn't manage to make the trip with him but he came back with some Hokkaido biscuits which I ate the most. I liked one particular snow biscuit alot & he gave me a whole pack to get rid of me from bugging him. In addition to the tidbits, I got a Hard Gay Kiki Ippatsu. He said it was the last one left in the store and he bought it for me as a souvenir. I still have it sitting on my office desk.

Feudie was looking forward to his return to Singapore this coming CNY so that he could impart his SFIV knowledge & we could all play together once again. But I guess it was not meant to be.

We had spent a bulk of time hanging out together but I never realised that he meant so much to me as a friend. I just never realised at all...

In 5 hours' time, I will say my final farewell. I cannot sleep.

Last night his family had a procession whereby they burnt incense & some other stuff for him. I watched everything go up in flames that reached the trees & I could feel the heat burning against my skin although the fire was a good distance away. I wanted to cry but there were no more tears left. I think it is because I am learning to let go. I heard that he had lost his life trying to help someone who was trapped.

Elliot... you stupid ass. I'm so glad we had the chance to get to know each other better since that fateful day at the arcade in Suntec. I'm so goddamn proud to have been your friend. Even till the end, you stayed true to yourself. バカ。。。

Feudie & I will look forward to the day when it's our time to go, so that we may see you once more again. Until we meet again, you will be missed.

So Long... Dear Friend...

Safe Return

2009-01-03T02:33:00.004+08:00

We used to play Counterstrike together. Lost touch for a few years, then met by chance in an arcade one day playing KOFXI. He later joined me & Feudie in WoW and we hung out frequently together over weekend coffee sessions. Then he went abroad to study and we lost touch again.

You'd never think that the things that went on in the world would happen to you nor the people around you.

I heard about the news, yet I thought nothing much of it. It was too far away to be of any concern of mine. It was not something that could happen here in this safe little haven of a world that I live in.

Then it hits home. It just seems so surreal even after the news sank in.

1 Singaporean dead. 3 injured. 2 missing... and 1 of them is my friend. All I can do right now is to wait & pray.

Please be safe.

Happy Holidays

2008-12-29T10:07:00.013+08:00

~My musings~

I need to get my cpu fixed. My nose could use some fixing as well. I need a sharper one. And slimmer thighs.

Wahaha I went to cam whore in my kitchen again~

(shameless ish me)

Just the other day I had received an email from Facebook notifying me of a new friend add. To my horror, after clicking through the person's profile, I realised that it was the weirdo back at the roadshow the other day. How the hell? I ignored the request & suddenly thought of this guy back in my poly days. He spoke in chinese riddles & came to school with a Johnny Quest bag & a water bottle which you'd only see primary school kids carrying. Wackos.

~Christmas~

Christmas Eve was spent mostly in the office. Had loads of stuff to do before the 26th event at Suntec City. We did have an office gift exchange and not forgetting more cam whoring with mah b|@tch3s.

The Sakazaki never fails to deliver epic poses.

Merry Christmas Every Buddy!

~New Year~

Was spent doing things your parents always tell you not to do. Smoke. Drink. Gamble. Woot.

The Ghost of New Year.

Enphe & Feudie.

Happy Holidays guys! Here's wishing each of you good health & all the best in your future endeavours. May 2009 bring much joy & happiness to everyone! (cos it did for me already. I beat the Sagat kid 3 rounds flat in SF4 /hyuk. Cldn't resist man :P After all the terrorizing he has inflicted upon me, it's payback time)

Happy New Year Blankie!

Side Note to another fag: Bloody Sagat humji ball-less piece of eunuch shit. I'll pay you back with interest you chao ah gua.

Shing. 二指神功. Sibei song.

EEEEYAAAARRR!!

2008-12-13T10:39:00.010+08:00

What do you do when you over promise & realise you can't deliver? If you're as fucked up as the baboon, you take sick leave.

Brilliant. So I hound the next in charge & find that the next day she takes sick leave too! Such a coincidence! It's like rolling a 1 for an item you need. Twice.

I want to do this to some ppl.

With my direct supervisor on leave & team mate on exam leave, I was left to fend for myself & hold up the team for the past week. Having to work until midnight & enduring Chris' ABBA album was bad nuff, now I have to put up with a bunch of sick primates & get dragged into useless meetings where at the end of it, they still can't decide on anything nor make up their freaking minds.

And this.

"As a gamer, would you buy this?" A director poses this question to me.

"No." came my reply. I don't see why I would want to fork out so much dough just to buy a client of a free game that comes with a physical item emblazoned with just the logo of the product. I'd much rather you give me an in-game item, even if it was just for cosmetic purposes.

The same question gets posed to another colleague of mine & she replies with an affirmative yes. She turns around to look at a guy colleague & me, then adds with a hint of sarcasm tainted in her voice, "If you're a hardcore gamer, you would buy it."

Excuse me? Is she implying she knows better & I know jackshit about the product? I've tried the game long enuff to know that I shouldn't be wasting my fucking time on it. Watching the Drumma Queen play Ape Academy or Katamari was way more entertaining.

Shaddup Foo!

We laughed. I don't know about my guy colleague but I was amused by her mentality & confidence that you could move products off a shelf simply by slapping a logo on. We ain't Blizzard babe. And if I don't pry into her area of work, then she should stay out of mine too & let me do my job.

Diam lah knn.

Which brings me to think about why I'm still in this job even when I complain so much about it all the time. In all honesty, it's not the job that bothers me. In fact, I kinda enjoy what I'm doing. I get along super with my vendors. It's some of the ppl in the company that I have to work with that makes me feel like my intellect drops each time I have a conversation with them.

Bloody hell man.

LOL?

2008-12-09T15:33:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday I took up an assignment which required me to cosplay as the S2 priest for a roadshow at Takashimaya. For 2 days @ 4 hours each, the organizers gave me an Xbox 360 Pro. That's not too difficult just standing around posing for pictures and minding the other cosplayers, or so I thought. What I didn't expect was that I had to contend with:

1. An outdoor roadshow. I was practically melting in the outfit.

2. Douchebags who tug at the wings. It's fucking annoying.

3. A security guard who kicks up a fuss about shoppers taking pics when I step indoors to cool off during my break. No pics indoors he says, but I can't control that (tell that to the shoppers not me) and people are taking pics of the fucking Xmas tree indoors anyway and I'm standing next to the damn tree. Civic Plaza belongs to Takashimaya and the organizers are renting space from Takashimaya so what gives?

4. A psycho stalker. It is hard to forget a conversation such as this.

Stranger: Miss! Miss! Hi!
Me: Hi.
Stranger: Miss! Miss! I want to say I said hi.
Me: Er... hi.
Stranger: Miss, do you have Facebook? Can I add you as friend? I want to make more friends. If I add you as friend, can I ask you come out next time?
Me: Err...
Stranger: I have write my confessions on Facebook. I want to be truthful then you can earn my trust.
Me: Err... okaaaaay...
Stranger: I have many unhappiness cos I have 2 friend on Facebook but both die already. One went crazy...
Me: Uh huh... *raises eyebrows* (Like WTF?)
Stranger: And the other one got murdered by terrorist.
Me: Mnnnmmfftt... *turns away and /facepalms trying very hard not to LOL*

Half hour later, he returns.

Stranger: Miss, Miss, I am very honored to be your friend.
Me: *forcing a smile* Ah yes yes. (I must be looking like a fucking idiot but I was too stunned for words)

He goes on to stalk the Blood Elf cosplayer.

Stranger: Miss, Miss, of the 3 of you all, I like you the most.
BE Cosplayer: Erm mm... errm...
Stranger: Cos you dress very royal, red & gold colour.
BE Cosplayer: Mmrm... err... mm...
Stranger: You got Facebook?
BE Cosplayer: No.
Stranger: Then how to contact you?

He goes on to bug her for a picture together. Upon seeing this, the Lich King & I turn around & walk away hurriedly in the opposite direction, but he chases after me and requests for a picture. I grudgingly obliged. I looked around for Lich King & sees him lumbering away into the distance. Damn... I have never seen him walk so fast with all the armour in the whole of the afternoon.

Stranger: *chasing after Lich King* Man! Man! I want to take picture with you!

The Lich King continues walking away quickly, his shin guard drops onto the floor in the process but he still continues walking. The stranger runs after him and tugs him on the shoulder. I could see Lich King lose his balance a little & I grabbed him and pulled him forward. I could hear him cursing under the helm but he too was cursed to take a picture with the forsaken.

The stranger comes back to me again some time later and holds up a cell phone to my face.

Stranger: This is my number. If you want, you can give it to the other 2 also. Will you all be here tomorrow?
Me & BE: NO!

He loiters around the place until the late afternoon then I got off work & left the place. Good luck to Bob the Builder, Optimus Prime & Ben Ten.

At least I got a pic with Optimus.

Drummin' Up a Storm

2008-12-01T15:37:00.003+08:00

1. My house com is down. I think the motherboard blew up or something.

2. I am still recovering from my finger injuries after a whole week of vigorous hand exercises via Guitar Hero World Tour. (I seem to enjoy beating things with sticks.)

3. Plus I think the hairdresser cut my fringe a tad bit short, and just when I have an event this coming weekend.

4. The optometrist says I have scratches on my right eyeball and advises I stop wearing my contacts for the time being so I'm half blind now @_@

Talk about a streak of bad luck. (although I must admit the 2nd point is more like I had it coming.)

Continuing on from point 2, The Sakazaki & I have concluded that the Drama Queen cannot play the drums for peanuts although she plays a mean guitar. We now dub thee Drama Queen the 'Drum'ma Queen! Grats... /golfclap.

Sweet Revenge

2008-11-24T11:23:00.010+08:00

Sweet Revenge

"How was the Anime Fest?" A friend had asked.

"I don't know man." came my reply.

Just last Saturday, I had entered the convention for free thanks to a colleague who had exhibitor passes. The first section my body's game radar had detected was the TKA booth where the tourneys were being held and I ended up camping there without bothering to walk around to explore the whole exhibition.

So... I really don't know man.

Initially, I had planned on watching the tourney but it was over by the time I arrived so I thought I'd walk around the booth to take a look and hopefully get a few games in. A guy got up from a machine and the crowd surrounding were staring at one another so I took the chance to squeeze in like a hamster and plonk my ass on the chair. Without thinking much, I inserted my credit and looked up at the screen to see who my opponent was.

Ryu - 19 wins.

WTF? 19 wins? I must be suicidal.

I tried to look over to the other end to get a glimpse of the player but all I saw was the crowd giving me a skeptical 'You must be suicidal' look. I picked Ken. A guy behind goes "Whoa Ken."

Ryu VS Ken. Old but nevertheless epic.

We fought on to the 5th round where we both had won 2 rounds each and were down to very little HP.

Ryu was in the corner.

I did a forward MK.

He forced an Ultra.

This is so gonna hurt.

The crowd gave a loud WHOA that echoed through the whole booth and everyone turned to look over.

I kicked Ryu but took the full Ultra. Both of us fell to the ground and the screen seemed to freeze for an eternity. Then Ken stood up.

I heaved a sigh of relief. I could hear the crowd behind breathe out too. Felt damn drama.

I looked over to the other end to see Mr Rat Face stand up and started exchanging some words with the dude who plays SF EX.

Never once have I beaten that Ah Lao.

Revenge is definitely sweet.

Looking back at the screen, I discovered that there was a media video camera sitting on the side of my machine filming in my face. Great. After all the frowning and KNNs I was muttering under my breath during the match, I must have been looking damn glam.

My fav scene in the trailer.
I now know what it means. It is telling you to beware the toe.

14 November 2008 - Tribute to Ashura

2008-11-15T00:21:00.017+08:00

14 November 2008 - Tribute to Ashura

I used to play a priest. Her name was Ashura.

At 1500 rating.

Epic-ed out at 2000 rating baby.

So there I was tripping over the long skirt that was sweeping the floor at the event venue. It didn't help too that my vision was that of a dome shape for the whole of the day because of the hood. Each time I turned I'd slap someone with the winged shoulders and some narrow lanes I had to squeeze through like a crab.

To think that my character actually runs around in arena jumping off bridges and doing Bollywood movies around pillars. Blizzard needs to re-think their arena gear designs to that of a hawaii shirt and beach shorts. Nobody can run dressed in this getup.

Who needs 5 ppl for 5v5 when you got Arthas.
Oh wait... Thrall lagged out.

Thrall still lagging outside in town.

Despite the above complaints though, I still like the outfit very much (but my fav is still S3). Everyone wanted to touch the offhand. I was so busy during the redemption I didn't have time to break for lunch. So when after the media departed and we were left in the room to rest up, I one-shotted all the leftover peach tarts. Yea, I know I'm supposed to be a human priest but I ate like an undead.

Ner'zhul would have been so goddamn proud.

Now I get to be Ashura too.

666

2008-11-13T00:27:00.019+08:00

666

仇

I do not take kindly to apes, especially the shrieking types that break into maniacal hysterics when placed in close vicinity with a certain breed of poultry.

I hope you choke on your banana you fucking baboon.

You bet your ass I do.

恩

Notus messaged me on Skype today and asked how I was doing. Danny is still trying to psycho me to join them in Warhammer Online. As insignificant as these gestures may seem to anyone else, it had meant alot more to me.

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Effie is getting married in days to come and I look forward to watching the video footage of it.

Congrats Iffy!

Although Feudie & I can't be there physically to attend this important event of your life...

our heartfelt blessings & well wishes goes out to you and your lucky wife /wink.

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Today seems to mark a day to remind me of the reasons of why my passion for gaming has continuously brought so much joy into my otherwise mundane and ordinary life...

if i don't remember you,

heyy asura,

if i don't remember you,

then i didn't ever played balhae. :D

of course i remember you.

so long time no see...

Jay.

Guildmaster Julie Amour... so glad you still remember me...

It is because of you guys.

Bitchings of Miss Bitch

2008-11-11T00:55:00.008+08:00

Bitchings of Miss Bitch

(Warning: Asra is feeling random and may not be talking sense at the moment she was writing this post. She is all out to offend the world.)

Lately a colleague has been encouraging me to take part in the SF4 tourney that's gonna be held at the Anime Festival later this month. I was toying around with the idea a little just for old memories' sake but then the $13 registration fee turned me off completely. I am dirt poor at this moment in time (due to my misadventures in Japan, I had set my credit card on fire) so paying a fee of 3 & a half plates of Loy Kee chicken rice to get my ass pooned... I don't think so. Ideally, (at least in my wildest imagination) I should be kicking ppl's asses... No fark they should be paying me to poon their asses.

Then again, my boss has summoned me to work for an event on the same day so I figure I'll be guaranteed 3 and a half plates of chicken rice for saving that 13 bucks. (As much as I love gaming, I love food more).

And if time could stand still, I'd be:

1. Forever 18
2. Stuck in a sashimi buffet
3. Bumming around & playing UO: LBR

WOTLK Launch is this incoming Friday and I do not in the least bit look forward to it at all cos:

1. Work. I do not entirely hate events but I won't say I love it either.
2. Someone is gonna fly out the window on the 6th storey I can feel it. (Actually I'm kinda looking forward to this. It's what happens after that I don't)
3. I don't need something Blizzardy to remind me of how much I miss my DR family.

But at least for now, something that shameless me is gonna be shameless about...

I am 12 years old tra la la~

"Oh! You look fab!"

My ass man. Either you guys are doing a lousy job trying to suck up to her...

If not then it's a typo of T instead of a B.

优秀

2008-10-31T01:10:00.033+08:00

优秀

High Class.

It was what the Drama Queen had once used to describe me.

I am the biggest mistake of her life...

For if she had staked her life as a bet on me, she'd be dead by now. She grumbles about it every now and then and swears that she regretted introducing me to the Fat Duck, whom she attributes to 'unlocking' me.

I show you high class baby. (See anything familiar Gambler?)

优秀?

Think again.

Gambler wants a piece of the pie too.

Addicts Anonymous was supposed to be glam.

Until one started acting moronic.

And the other got retarded.

I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

"I am T-Rex, hear me roar."

But your hands are small...

My Epicness Part III

2008-10-28T23:01:00.029+08:00

My Epicness Part III

Waking up to the transient clattering of train tracks was not a first in my lifetime. I've heard it before when I used to stay in Malaysia as a kid, and back then I never paid much attention to it. This time, however was a little different. The distant clamour had summoned me out from my emerald dream, but surprisingly I was not feeling the least bit annoyed. On the contrary, I welcomed it.

... Because it is softly whispering to me, reminding me that I was still in Japan. There is no other place in the world I love more than here.

Thirsty, I glided out of bed and reached for a beer from the mini fridge. There was no other drink I could find and I was reluctant to slurp water from the tap. Since arriving 2 days ago, we've been living off soft drinks and beer. There was no kettle provided in the room so there was no means of obtaining boiled water for consumption or tea. (Later I was to discover that hot water could be drawn from the lift lobby area at the corridor. Doh...)

Mission for the day - Hostile takeover of Harajuku, storm the bridge and infiltrate the shrine. Fire in the hole! (Declare your state of emergency Japan. You are not prepared!)

And I was definitely not prepared for this...

Staring at the ocean of people from atop the street, Feudie and I made a swift diversion to Lotteria for breakfast. Yes... double cheese burgers again. I must be out of my mind chowing down burgers in Japan but they are just too good an indulgence to pass up on. It'd be a crime to say no.

Looking for a smoking area in Takeshita-dori proves to be quite a feat. We exited through the first small lane we could find and joined in with a few Japanese Ah Bengs squatting by the roadside. Nobody seemed to bother about us having our puff there, so I reckon we were doing a decent job blending in. I spotted an Avex Trax training school a little up the small lane and there were a bunch of schoolgirls camping outside. Wonder if they were waiting for some celebrity?

After navigating through Takeshita-dori, we stopped by Laforet and then decided to randomly head in one direction in the hopes of finding the bridge.

My ninja senses tell me it is that-a-way.

As luck would have it, we were right. The bridge is actually en route to the shrine so it suited my plan perfectly.

Sundays - When the bridge comes to life

Long trek in to shrine.

A true ninja has perfected the art of blending into the surroundings.

And finally...

Literally throwing your money away.

So I pray for more money back than what I threw away.

What luck! We get to see a wedding.

Leaving the shrine via another exit was a big mistake cos we got lost. We tried our luck cutting through the back alley of some houses and stumbled upon a vending machine selling Asahi grape jelly which I had taken a very fond liking to. The alleyway was quiet. Housewives were hanging out the laundry and occasionally a cyclist rode by. It felt like I was walking through people's houses.

The sky was darkening (night comes early in autumn) and by the time we found the station and headed back to Shinjuku, it was pitch black.

Feudie headed back to the hotel room whereas I decided I was gonna drop by Marui to do a little shopping. He gave me a hug and told me to wait at the entrance of the mall if I didn't get back by 10pm. He probably knows I'd get lost (how right he was).

En route to Marui, I kept getting stopped by some male escorts handing out flyers. What I didn't know was that the minute you accepted the flyer, they assume you're interested in purchasing their services and they try to get you to follow them back to their headquarters. One of them made small banter and asked where I was heading off next. I shook him off by saying I wanted to go take a look at the street festival parade that was ongoing nearby. (Shoulda fought with him for the flyer when he took it back).

Pretty odd to see something traditional in the middle of Kabuki-cho.

Another escort stopped me at the traffic light but this time I asked if I could keep the flyer. I added that the dudes in the flyers were all very good looking and he let out a guffaw and said ok. Walking off (and proud of my loot), I flipped the flyer around and noticed a small scribbling at the corner. He had written his name down on the back of it. It read Hayato in Japanese.

My preciousssss...

Well, I did get lost but I met a nice lady who took me to Marui as she happened to be going to the building next to it. She asked if I was travelling alone and I told her I was on holiday with my boyfriend. Nice lady... She bid me farewell and to take care when we arrived at our destination.

Got chased out of the building again when the shops closed at 9pm. Got lost again and finally made it back to the hotel at 9.30pm to discover the room dark and empty. I wondered if Feudie had gone out looking for me already?

20 mins later I discovered a piece of paper on the dressing table with his handwriting.

Gone to Las Vegas to play Street Fighter 4.

To think I was getting worried for nothing...

I put on a coat and headed down to look for him. Talk about ending the night with a bang.

”きをつけて。”

Thank you kind lady.

WHY WHY CHAO CHEE BYE

2008-10-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

WHY WHY CHAO CHEE BYE

I am hoarse from screaming.

My neighbours are probably thinking a murder is being committed in my house.

I am beyond pissed. Beyond emo. Beyond upset. Beyond words.

I will continue to curse and swear in the days to come.

I cannot fucking believe this.

It is best you leave me alone until my Shiki Wrath blows over.

My Epicness Part II

2008-10-22T23:59:00.020+08:00

My Epicness Part II

I awoke at 8.30am to the soft ringing of my phone alarm. Switching it off, I continued to laze around and wriggle like a worm on the bed. The weather was cool, it was early and I was gonna get up in a while and lumber down to the hotel restaurant and grab breakfast before heading out on my invasion of Japan.

Or so I thought...

I stole a quick glance at the hotel clock on the dressing table and realised to my horror that it was in fact 9.30am. I had forgotten to set my time forward an hour. Breakfast ends in an hour and this spells the end of the world for me. There is no way in hell I am missing my stewed daikons, scrambled eggs, bacons, miso soup & freshly brewed tea.

I attempted to roll Feudie off the bed and then made a mad rush to wash up and change. Managed to catch breakfast but was a little emo when they ran out of milk for my cereal /cry.

After breakfast comes the hardest part of the day. This is making our way down to Makuhari Messe via the complicated railway system to our planned destination for the day - Tokyo Game Show 2008. Woohoo~!

Miraculously though, we had hopped onto the correct trains and made it to our destination in about one and a half hours. Feudie had managed to figure out how the railway system works after that one trip and I was pretty thankful he was around to make sure we didn't end up on the wrong side of Japan. I thought I had finally learnt how to read maps until he pointed out to me that I was holding it upside down. Fug this... I threw the map back at him.

There was a crowd outside the station and we decided that we should follow a particular guy in blue holding a very big camera. Can't possibly go wrong with that. Mr Otaku eventually leads us to the exhibition entrance before he ran off excitedly into the distance. Probably saw Doraemon or something.

Kyo was the first sight that greeted us.

Sup Yo. You've come to the right place.

We purchased our tickets at the front of the exhibition hall but was told by a guard that we had to enter via another entrance. We had no idea where that was so we followed a whole bunch of people moving along in one direction. Ended up entering through a back gate with lots of security checks and guards and ducking under a half closed shutter gate (like some refugee camp. You'd expect more out of TGS).

First booth upon entry. Koei & Dynasty Warriors.

KOFXII was on the left side of entrance.

Lookie! Floating Chocobo!

Stuck at Bandai booth for damn long watching adverts.

Snake! (applies to the Q as well)

And my fav banner of the lot, cos it looks so goddamn good.

From a distance it looked like it was doing something obscene.

Q for train tickets after event ended.

We reached Shinjuku at 7pm and Feudie had insisted on helping me look for the building we were looking for the whole of the night before. We did manage to locate it in the end and that was when I realised that I had misread the name of the building to begin with. By the time I actually found the place, it was already half an hour to closing time, but it was more than enuff for me to blow at least $300. Maybe it would have been a good thing if I didn't manage to find the building in the first place...

The salesgirls were so nice that they even escorted me to the lift. I thought she was showing me around. The next thing I knew, I was out of the building and they closed the doors shut. WTF! I'm not done yet! They're so polite that I didn't even notice I was getting chased out of the building. Felt damn cheated.

9pm and shops are closed. So the next best thing to do was to head to the nearest convenience store and stock up on instant noodles and beer. Drop by Lotteria for some super delicious double cheese burgers and off to Las Vegas we go!

I'm so glad I picked Shinjuku Prince Hotel. You can't get a better place if you want good looking men and 24 hour arcades 3 mins away.

Dirt cheap cigs? Hell yea.

Allow Feudie to demonstrate.(somehow I seem to like this pic alot)

If you don't know where to go~

2008-10-22T01:18:00.001+08:00

If You Don't Know Where to Go~

A Saturday night at Bugis Junction. When it is late at night and all is quiet. There is nothing better else to do than to...

CAM WHORE!!

The Sakazaki expressing her disgruntlement of being a free model.

It starts out harmless enough.

It escalates indoors.

And we make ourselves at home on the floor.

You find the perfect spot & you abuse it.

And you do the Para Para.

The Totem.

And the finishing... The Saru.

Shameless is not enough a word to describe us.

"Ibi will never talk to me again."

You bet Drama Queen.

My Epicness

2008-10-18T11:02:00.000+08:00

My Epicness

(Note: Incoming Lala mode and long rant. You have been warned)

Goodbye Singapore.

Hellooooo Japan!

I used to say I wanted to die in Japan. I shall correct that now.

I WILL die in Japan... from lung cancer.

With cigarettes going dirt cheap at 320 yen (5 SGD) for a box of 20 Marlboro Ice Mints, I was all out to smoke my ass off.

Hotel room, bathtub, arcade, Macdonald's, pachinko parlours, restaurants and obscure corners of the streets. You name it, I smoked it.

Imagine stuffing yourself with sushi & sukiyaki with sake/beer in an air-conditioned restaurant and being able to smoke at the same time... I must be in heaven...

Hoppy - Jap beer which is mixed with half a mug of sake

Day 1

So, going backwards from the day I landed in Japan. The minute I checked into the hotel room, Feudie and I wasted no time in dumping all the luggage on the floor and lighting up a cigarette. Aah... the joys of a smoking room.

We headed out after our hoon ki break and the first place we went to was Taito Game Station cos they had a very big prominent signboard. I couldn't help but feel drawn to the place.

The UFO catcher machines have the cutest toys ever. I sighted one which had a freezer installed in it and you could kiap ice cream. Going up to the other levels, there were many of those online card games and one particular section had alot of giant egg capsules where people would sit in one and play some Gundam game. Each capsule came with a big screen, those mecha remotes and an earphone and mike to communicate with your team mates. Makes you feel as though you are really piloting a Mech yourself. Very very cool...

I went up another level and there were pachinko machines all over. Then I sighted one very badass looking machine which I have come to name 'The Mothership'.

Ooooo...

I think it's their most popular in the pachinko parlours. It has the same coin pushing concept as the ones we have at our arcades but you can slot tokens at the side and the machine will suck them in and toss them onto the top layer. Pushing the coins off the 2nd layer will spin the jackpot. Small wins will shower tokens onto your top layer, whereas bigger wins enables you a chance at the Gold Jackpot where they will release a big silver ball in the middle contraption and it moves until it stops and falls into a hole. There are many different holes with different prizes such as Grand Slot, 100 token, 200 tokens, Silver Jackpot & Gold Jackpot.

I was hypnotized by it for a while before I snapped out of it and went up to the top floor where I found this signboard.

What?

Didn't quite get it at first, but later I realised that certain levels of buildings they don't allow men in unless they are accompanied by a lady friend. I suppose they're trying to deter perverts from harrassing the women.

While exploring the different floors, I noticed that there was a smell of tabacco smoke lingering in the air and there were ashtrays positioned at every machine. Holy shit! We can smoke in here! I lit a cigarette and watched the reaction of the people who passed by, a little apprehensive and half expecting to be approached by a staff to be told that smoking was not allowed within the premises. No one batted an eyelid at me nor seem the least bit bothered by my smoke. That's it man. From that moment on, every cig I smoked in the arcade/pachinko parlours, I smoked like I was some seasoned regular local. Nobody could tell I was a foreigner. It was fun camouflaging amongst the crowd.

After leaving Taito Game Station, I spent the rest of the night getting lost. It was pretty intimidating with 9 lane roads and skyscrapers. I couldn't read the map for peanuts. I kept walking past a giant red moving crab signboard and never got to finding the building I wanted to go to. It got to the point where I was too tired and hungry to walk any further that I had to settle for the nearest fast food outlet for dinner. MacDonald's as your first meal on your epic trip! Nice... Well, at least I could smoke and eat at the same time. That pretty much made up for it.

Feudie and I decided to head back to the hotel to rest up for the night and we cut through a lane thinking it was a shortcut back. Kami-sama decides that since I made it all the way to his land just to eat MacDonald's, it was only right that he should reward my sincere efforts. Therefore he sent me a saviour. It was like an oasis in a desert.

There is a God afterall!! ありがとう神様！

I must be in heaven again. Good looking men littered the colourful streets of arcades, karaoke and pachinko parlours. They all looked similar with their shoulder length dyed hair, tall lanky frames and neatly pressed black suits. It's as though you copied and pasted them on the streets.

I started going, "Hay Hay Hay". I was supposed to do it at the airport dammit. I must be lagging from the flight.

So many bishounens! I can't believe our shortcut was through Kabuki-cho! This place... my dear friends... is the source of all my enthusiasm for Tokyo. It is the LaLa Land of the Japanese male escorts. Duck Paradise.

I was so absorbed by the mesmerizing scenery that I blinded followed Feudie towards the direction of the theatre. Feudie was obviously getting drawn to something from a distance as well but it was no duck.

LAS VEGAS. GG.

The famed arcade with all the pros. I know a friend who specially took a bullet train all the way from Osaka just to play with the pros here. I actually found my way here. I went in to tour the place and I must say that the arcade lives up to its reputation. Feudie was to spend every night of the entire trip at this place from then on.

After finally managing to drag Feudie out of the place, we headed back to the hotel room where I practised my S&S combo. That's Soak & Smoke for short. Smoking while soaking in the bathtub. It just doesn't get any better than this.

I slept soundly that night.

Let me stay just a little longer...

The Last Goodbye

2008-10-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

The Last Goodbye

It is with a heavy heart that I log into Feudie's account today, for I have found a buyer for his warrior and have come online to clear out the inventory in preparation for the sales transaction. As much as everyone has been saying to keep the account, we have come to this decision and will not be changing our minds. There will be no turning back. This is where my closure will be.

You have really come a long way.

Dear Asrael,

We have finally come to the end of the road. Thank you for making this journey with me.

It has been a long time since I have felt so sad.

Today, I cry for you.

For all the times we had...

The Joys... The Sorrows...

And Love.

You will be missed.

Love,

Asra

Revelations

2008-10-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

Revelations

I have been mostly happy the past week.

1. Japan is 1 day away. I can almost smell the air.
2. My team mate has been working well with me ever since the re-organization. I feel a lot more in control of situations at work now. It is really a blessing when you can find someone you can get along and work with. It makes work enjoyable and this is truly a first in my career.
3. Feudie has returned from China at long last and I will meet him in an hour's time.

The only thing I'm peeved about atm is that I made a boo boo with the currency rate ytd. I really really really regretted my stubborn decision to wait it out longer. I swear upon this mistake that I will make up for my $145 loss by drinking myself silly on the plane en route to Japan. I was inspired by non other than Nanonen himself. Thanks for the enlightenment.

(To Be Continued as I'm leaving the office now)

And so... I'm back to continue my list of recent revelations and here goes:

1. I have no talent for DJ Max.
2. I need to sacrifice a hand to pass a certain song.
3. I have been growing muscles from it.
4. The pros at this game are the Ah Bengs & Ah Lians.
5. Leg wax does not work on the armpits.
6. Cos you get your hair stuck under it. (epic phail)
7. Always check which side the wax is on before application.
8. Sneezing while shaving your eyebrows is not a good idea.
9. Ginseng Candy. Do not be fooled.

Anyway... the tagboard is up as demanded by the Drama Queen. I see she has wasted no time in abusing it.

On a side note, here's wishing Drama Queen an early Happy Bird Day :D Enjoy your special day in Japan!

WTF?

2008-10-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

WTF?

The day had started out bad enough. It was a monday morning and my direct colleague in my team had called for an urgent half day off. I had discovered that work due to me last week had not yet been submitted and when I marched right up to my debtor's cubicle demanding payment, an array of excuses sat there waiting for me. I was so close to spilling blood over the choking baboon's desk and hang a pig's head on his chair.

I restrained myself from throwing my Hard Gay figurine (Note: It is very hard) at him and went back to my seat after reaching an agreement for my dues. That was when I heard excited shouts of "Asra! Asra!" coming from the direction of the office entrance. I turned around in time to see a 12 year old boy with gawd awful waist length hair running through the doorway, his hands clasping a bunch of the mane at each side, reminiscent of a Chinese farmer girl from the country side. "My Wig! It's here!" exclaimed the juvenile with an exuberant twinkle in his eyes.

It took me a while to process all the information from the sudden twist of events. Who the fuck is this? Wig? Here?

I had a vague recollection of a complaint about a wig not delivered somewhere at the back of my brain, so I took a closer look at the boy's face and that was when it suddenly dawned upon me that this tranny in the making was in fact my good friend... Iris.

The sombre silence of a Monday morning in the office was shattered by my howls of laughter, accompanied by a couple of other colleagues. I wished I could have screen shotted her storming through the door holding her pigtails in glee. It was damn epic.

Memories from the Past

2008-10-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

Memories From the Past

I have broken a record. My previous one to be exact.

Last night I woke up at 9pm. Wow... imagine going to bed at night and waking up at night the next day. Feels like a vampire. A friend says I'm growing fangs.

Had a shower, chatted with Feudie over MSN and off to bed I go again at 12am. So my body decides that enough sleep was enough, cos I awoke with a jolt this morning at 11am from a nightmare.

I was going through a couple of folders in my C: when I came across some old Ultima Online screenies.

Usually I wear a robe but I forgot why I was naked in this screenie. In UO, anything goes. All the things you could never do in RL, you'd do it in this world. It was a riot. I love this game alot more than WoW but it was a pity that EA screwed it over.

The tower of stolen rares.

Well, amongst all the screenies I found 3 treasures. They are letters written to me by Feudie many years back and I have kept and held on to them until today, just like many of the other gifts from him. I will share one but the other two will follow me to my grave as they are far too precious to be shared with anyone else.

In this letter, he writes about my UO character. It was the first thing he has ever written for me and I treasure it from the bottom of my heart.

The rarely seen Asura of the hunting group was claimed by many to be indescribably beautiful. Beautiful in what way however, no one could ever agree on. Some said it was her mysterious smile that enraptured you before she disintegrated your body with powerful magics. Others claimed that it was her lithe figure and slender form that was almost always clothed in the most delicate of silks and leaving all of her body visible to those few who ever had the rare fortune or misfortune to feast their eyes on her milky white skin. Yet some swore it was the fusion of the beauty of man and beast, combination of the dark unbridled fury of her nightmare and cool demeanor of human rider.

What the men agreed on however, was that how you could never turn away once you looked into the deep azure eyes of Asura, whether upon pain of death or mounting fear of her deathly steed, you never looked away once you gazed into her eyes. And death she brought, be it for the fresh meat her nightmare hungered for, the casualties one had to inflict in war or the orders FeudalAzrael handed to her. She killed with that rapturous smile of hers ....for she was Asura, meaning Death Incarnate in the high tongue, mage of the circle of grandmasters and tamer unsurpassed.

The Dreaded

2008-10-04T23:25:00.001+08:00

THE DREADED

Boy & Girl are sitting on a couch watching TV. Boy turns to Girl and says," Let's apply for a house together." They get married. The End.

It was what I had dreaded all my life. That the once in a lifetime, most important event in your existence is going to start off with a "Let's apply for a house together."

The other day Feudie had said to me to ballot for an apartment and then to check out the Registry of Marriage site to book a date. It felt like the world stood still and I had turned into a block of ice.

No! NO! nO! Fark No! NoOoOOoooo...

This may risk me getting dumped but I will remain firmly adamant about not getting married without a proper proposal. After 10 years with the first love of your life, and are still very much in love no different from the courtship days, you'd expect something a little more from the beginning of your lives together.

I have likened it to being as casual as a gay pulling open your curtain in a gym shower and going, "Hey, want to have a go?"

/No. Not going to happen. NooOoo.... T_T

/NO

2008-10-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

/NO

8 days to Ji Poon!

I arranged to meet a friend of mine in Shinjuku on the 14th. It's funny how I managed to understand what she was trying to tell me over MSN cos her english is just as bad as my jap lol. It's like a duck & chicken conversing. At least I know for a fact I won't get lost for one day!

Feudie's been telling me about his gastronomic adventures again. Pig's ears... that's... damn... gross... He was saying he's gonna try every weird thing before he comes back to SG. From the way he tells me about how they get their food in China, I think I will starve to death there. I hereby strike off China on my travel list. /condemn

I wish Feudie will come back soon :(

Street Fighter: The Later Years

2008-10-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

Street Fighter: The Later Years

Public holidays are the worst time to go shopping so I realised. I was at Vivo City's Daiso today trying to hunt for stuff to bring along on my trip next week but it was so packed I wanted to U-turn and get the hell out the moment I stepped in. I spent the rest of the time shoving through the ocean of aunties and kicking small kids who got in the way. Kids annoy me to hell... especially the running screaming types. Feel like smacking them when they run past.

Ended up in Bugis again later in the evening. I think I'm spending too much time there. Wait lemme rephrase that... suddenly very free after quitting WoW. I keep running into familiar faces at the SFVI machines. They're ppl whom I used to play SF with a very long time back at Cineleisure. Even Basuki made a special appearance out of his shop. I never thought he'd actually leave the comforts of his crabhole.

The SFVI audience, I've come to notice are all men who are over the age of 25, some balding even. Says alot about Street Fighter lol. Talk about a reunion.

Webcammed with Feudie over MSN. He started sending me pictures of food he had eaten in China (rooster crowns, chicken in pig's intestines wtf?) Looks like he put on a little weight, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's just the camera.

Countdown check! 9 days to Japan!

Freedom

2008-09-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

FREEDOM

It pisses me to know that my BFF has been bullied yet again by those so called team mates of hers. To pick on your own comrade who is there for the purpose of helping to ease your workload, it is downright low, despicable and nothing short of being the scumbag of scums.

"You're at the wrong place." She told her.

If I had been there to witness that, I would have rebutted her with a "You are at the wrong place too." She should be in Changi with her fellow trannies.

I swear I will throw my resignation letter in their faces if I find that I have to work under that penis envy youkai or that choking baboon.

But it will be different from now on...

Dear BFF,

From now marks the beginning of a new era. You are finally free from the despairing chains that have tied you down for long enough.

Remember that you no longer answer to that sorry excuse for a human being.

Welcome to our team.

"I curse you to an eternity of bitchiness...
Lavish in my morals of Don't Fucking Give Faceness."

Wherefore Art Thou Romulo

2008-09-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

Wherefore Art Thou Romulo

Dear Feudie,

I've been wondering about how you must be doing in China in the 8 degrees cold.

If you have been eating well or accustomed to the food.

If you missed me one bit at the very least.

..............

And you tell me you got body searched by a hot China chick at the airport! And searched very long!

You want hot China chicks? I give u sizzling hot China chicks.

Ok, I'm just kidding but the chick below is definitely alot hotter than the rest :P

Say yes or ur PS3 is going out the same way the couch did -_-

Lots of Love,
Asra

It's Alive!

2008-09-29T17:11:00.000+08:00

IT'S ALIVE!

I am hungry…

I just realized that I have only eaten 3 meals since last Friday. I’ve been too lazy to even walk down to the coffee shop below my place to buy food, but instead chosen to Patapon the hunger away and starve and sleep. I missed out on lunch today as I went to get my phone fixed and it was a freaking nightmare.

I overshot my stop at Redhill and ended up at Buona Vista, so I took a train back the other way. Walked down to Leng Kee Road and asked a security guard if he knew where No. 3 was and he directed me to the other end of the street. Made it to the other end of the street only to be told by another security guard that it was back at the other end where I had came from. Farking hell.

I backtracked to the other end and finally found the damn place only to discover that the building was under construction and they had moved………………. Dot. Dot. Dot.

CB! How sway can I get! I will make a trip down to Waterloo Street sometime this week to burn incense and take some flowers home so I can go back and bathe in it with pomelo water. Knn.

I decided to take a cab down to the new address and halfway through the journey at a turning intersection, it jammed up. Turns out that the car right at the front broke down and was blocking the only lane, so the gangster cab driver reversed the car and did an illegal u-turn. I freaked out but fortunately, I arrived at my destination in one piece.

So I got my phone fixed but it cost me 80 bucks for a pocket size LCD screen. It’s friggin daylight robbery man. I was contemplating chugging down all the water in the dispenser at the customer service center just to justify the cost of the bloody LCD. Ararararrarara….

Fark sia. From now on, the phone stays off the bed. If it cracks again, I’m gonna /wrist.

I am Shameless

2008-09-29T01:45:00.000+08:00

I AM SHAMELESS

I was at Bugis again tonight with Lanpa and Iris going at Street Fighter IV. Played a few matches against some guys using C.Viper and derived at the sad conclusion that I have no fate with her. I have tried improving my technique and I think I've upped my game a little but it seems that no matter what I do, I keep losing out either punch for punch or special attacks to special attacks.

Her spinning kick has great recovery but it's not sufficient for me to hold out comfortably against the Shoto kids. I'm struggling to put up a fight. QQ.

Iris won a match with her dashing Sagat but she had refused to continue playing when another challenger stepped in. She insisted I took over and I was quite hesistant at first cos I know jackshit about playing Sagat and he's ugly as hell. Midway through the fight I was blocking and asking her how she does that flying knee thing. I really have no clue to his moves but ironically managed to garner 4 wins merely by mimicking the other Sagat players I had seen playing before.

I asked if she wanted to take over but she looked at me like I was mad and gave a firm no. She said she wasn't going to play now that I've fueled the fire and there was an ominous aura leaking from the other end. I lost my next game to an Abel (played by Mr Rebond Hair Guy) by a liiiiiiiiittle itsy bit. Just one light punch dammit. Arrrgghhh.... I'm gonna learn how to play Mr Baldy now. He's imba. I just have to psycho myself into thinking he's some hot desirable hunk.

Abel's grab move seems a little glitched. I was telling Lanpa and Wei Chern that he can grab opponents when they're halfway getting up from the ground and they noticed it too after watching a couple of matches. Lanpa even tried the game out and he was on the receiving end of it. Boh meaning he said lol.

This guy came up to me and asked if I was the same person who played in the SF3 tourney back in 1997. He even remembered the character I was using and the colour of the outfit I picked! GG.

(I found an old pic back in 1997 during the Capcom Carnival SF3 Tourney at Takashimaya. This pic appeared in the Friday Weekly newspapers and my friend had conveniently scanned it in and sent to me for souvenir. Sandy is the girl in yellow right next to me. I look like some kopi soh.)

Iris managed to complete the game with Sagat and he had some long boring ending. I tried Ryu out and completed the game but all I got was a face shot of Ryu with one stage line and then GAME OVER. Wtf! I grabbed hold of the nearest TKA staff and demanded a refund. He gave me an E-Zone token that got my machine stuck earlier but finally managed to shake me off by promising he'd install a KOF XI machine at Bishan Junction 8. Woot! ^^

I'm such a slut :P

Fuck It

2008-09-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

FUCK IT

I swear my mum’s menopausing.

She’s been badgering me to clean up my room and I’ve been telling her I’ll do it once I clear out my cupboard. Tbh, I don’t have any plans of doing either because:

1. I’m too fugging lazy

2. I have an intention to move out once I successfully ballot for a house

3. It’s easier to find things in the room this way cos I know where to find which item under what mess

She suddenly decides to clean the whole house (grudgingly). She storms through the rooms and throws incessant naggings at my dad and I. It was enough to drive my dad out of the house as he wasted no time in putting on a shirt and zoning out of the instance.

I had my foot run over by the vacuum cleaner in mum’s fury and had to listen to her throw the furniture around and slamming doors. She chased me out of the room so she could clean the floor so I took the opportunity to read the newspapers outside in the living room. I just tolerated whatever she vented at me and pretended I was deaf.

I went back into the room to discover the CPU switched off and she was yelling in the background for me to get out as she was not done mopping. I casually asked her if she had pulled any plugs in the process of cleaning and that was when she angrily shrieked at me, vehemently denying it. I snapped.

Knowing her, she had deliberately switched off the CPU to try to make her point across that I was spending too much time on it. The rest of the electrical appliances were still running just as I had left them.

B.A.N.K.A.I

I screamed bloody murder and slammed the door shut. I will move out. I want to and she wants me to cos she asks me about it every other day. And I will not miss a thing about this place because it has never once felt like home to me. We are nothing but strangers living under the same roof.

I sure as hell would like to do that now.

Countdown

2008-09-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN

It’s only been 2 days since Feudie flew off to China but I’m already feeling the brunt of his absence. Not being able to see someone dear to you is indescribably heart wrenching, it makes me wonder how some couples can cope with long distance relationships. In the meantime, I shall continue to post on this blog daily to update Feudie of happenings and also count down the days to my long awaited epic journey to the Land of the Rising Sun.

Just the other day I was telling Iris that I was gonna step out of the Narita airport looking like some stupid retard going “Hay Hay Hay”.

She called me a stupid retard… Basket.

I had planned on this trip after failing to obtain tickets for BlizzCon a month back. I guess it’s a good thing afterall that we couldn’t get to go. Feudie and I were joking about planting a bomb there and naming the operation ‘Mission: You are Not Prepared‘.

Anyway…

13 days to go! My EGOIST boots is calling out for me!

Things I want to do or see there:

1.) Ogle at the male social escorts. My original devious plan was actually to travel to Japan alone and hire a duck but it was gonna set me back by about $1400 for 4 hours just for his company alone. Maybe if I strike it rich one day…

2.) Eat like a sumo wrestler

3.) Soak in a hot spring and smoke, but I think I’ll get my ass thrown out

Most of all, I’m praying for a miracle of miracles that I’ll be able to see snow for the very first time in my life, but I highly doubt that as I will be going at the start of autumn. Shucks.

Last night, I was at Bugis VirtuaLand with Annie, Iris, Vanie and Lanpa (Lance). We girls were trying out Street Fighter IV and Iris had picked Sagat to try out. I sat beside her and gave her some pointers when she had to fight the guy at the next machine. I think I was more excited than she was.

“KNEE HIM! KNEE HIM! UPPERCUT!"

She lost by a margin. I think the guy’s balls shrunk man. He kept eating her random powered up uppercuts. I could hear them going WHOA over at the other end.

I was trying out C.Viper but I can’t seem to figure out some of her moves which I had seen on the video. She doesn’t seem to be as strong as the rest of the characters but I think I’ll familiarize myself with her a little longer before I move on to the rest. I’m sure I’ll find a way to play her competitively just like how I did with Whip when she first appeared in KOF09.

We headed back home to Bishan after the arcade closed, but Iris and I decided to grab some alcohol and sit down at the open area next to the NTUC to chat. We ended up playing DJ Max 2. People were walking past wondering what on earth were 2 girls doing in the middle of nowhere at 2am in the morning playing PSP going WHOA WHOA WHOA and NO NO NO I’M GONNA FAIL and erupting into bankai mode when the game goes, “You need more practice. Never give it up!”

My thumbs feel awfully sore now.

That gotta hurt.

Live it Up WWF Style!

2008-09-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

LIVE IT UP WWF STYLE!

So... continuing on from earlier's phone woes.

I was digging through my drawer for my phone's warranty card and purchase receipt and to my horror, discovered that I had conveniently forgotten to mail out the warranty card when I first bought the phone. Brilliant. The receipt dated November 2007 so I thought I'd try my luck and made my way down to the store which was just across the street to see if they could help me out.

The shop, I recalled was next to the ATM but wtf? It sells bubble tea and chinese herbal tea now? I remembered seeing this bubble tea shop open a couple of weeks back but it never occured to me that it had taken over the cell phone shop.

Fark!

I made my way instead to Bishan Junction 8 where I was sure I would find a dealer shop that would put an end to my cell phone misery. Basement recce wielded negative results so up to the 2nd floor I marched and from a distance, I scouted a series of dealer shops packed in a row. Aaaah... Magnifique I thought, rubbing my paws in ecstatic glee.

I stood in front of the first shop and looked up at the signboard. NOKIA stared back rudely at me.

I looked at my phone and the LG gleamed, as though protesting innocence.

Fark!

I moved on to the next shop.

SONY ERICSSON.

FARK!

Then HTC.

F
A
R
K
!!

I have concluded... that Bishan... suxxorz....

So I went to the small Funland arcade (where all the bengs hung out in the neighbourhood) next to the bubble tea shop to comfort myself over a game of KOF XI. As usual, the KOF 2002 machines were popularly populated by bengs of all shapes and sizes and there was this beng sitting in front of my desired machine fiddling with his cell phone. I politely asked him to get his ass off the chair and then I sat down, inserted a token and started playing.

Next thing I knew, Mr Beng decides to disrupt my phone comfort therapy session by inserting a token as well and challenging me to a match. I reckon he wasn't too happy about being made to move off the chair, or maybe he just wanted to test water. Either way, it suited me fine. I had a good team setup of Malin, Maxima & Adel who complimented one another and Mr Beng picks Iori, Oswald & Shen Wu. This should be fun.

かかってこい！Bring it on baby!

His Shen Wu killed off my Malin but Maxima proved to be worthy of his beefiness by exterminating the pesky irritant Roundhouse Kick spammer of a Shen Wu. Tag teamed (sounds like wrestling) with my Adel love (he's my fav), they're unstoppable stunmeisters if you can chain one combo in. One Adel Max Super later, Iori bites the dust OoOooo... (このままでは終わらんぞ～）

Oswald manages to put up a fight but is unfortunately overlapped by a flying Maxima who tags Adel in, jumping in from the top rope. (Boom Shaka Laka!)

Mr Beng watches in shock as his stunned Oswald gets the same smackdown as Iori did. (Right in the kisser!) He could only manage a 'Chee Bye' before he stood up and walked off, his friend howling with laughter in the background.

DING! DING! DING! Here is YOUR winnah! The InterCONtinental Tag Team CHAAAAMpions... *Insert Shawn Michael's I'm a sexy boy I'm not your boy toy sound track*

I sniggered wickedly under my breath. I never knew therapy sessions were so relaxing. I should do this more often.

So I continued my therapy and played until the final stage, but got my sorry ass pooned by the last boss.

No meaning -_-

DOH

2008-09-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

DOH

I cursed at myself for forgetting to switch off the alarm the night before when the phone rang this morning. It's supposed to be an off day for me but of all things, it had to ring today.

I reached for the phone to switch it off then realised that it was actually an incoming call from Enphesis. Grumbling under my breath, I wondered why Enphesis would call me up at such an obscenely early time, then realised that it was actually close to noon when I stole a quick glance at the clock. I suppose it's an ok time to be calling someone, but nevertheless early by my hibernation standards. Usually, I don't wake until the sun sets.

I picked up the call and mumbled a sleepy hello.

Silence.

Fark, I thought. Did he forget to lock his phone and it had dialed my number by accident? Ndazian had the same problem some time back and I used to get 11 missed calls in a row from him. Don't tell me Enphesis was gonna pull a Nda too.

"Hello hello?" Enphesis' hurried voice finally broke the silence.

He had called to ask if I had any way of contacting Notus as he had just sold his paladin account but then realised that he didn't have any of the important information such as the mailing address and secret question for the account which Notus had sold to him. The buyer was some American dude who had already transferred the dough over and Enphesis was getting worried that the guy might think he was out to scam him.

Upon probing further, I found out that Enphesis had sold his account for about SGD 500. That's not too shabby for one paladin. I'm thinking of doing the same too but I'm wondering how much I should ask for a full s3/4 piece s4 priest with capped 5000 arena points and a s2/s3/s4 mix rogue with 3000+ arena points. There's a level 64 oomkin and a low level warrior and mage and about 10,000+ gold in total.

Iris was saying she couldn't bear to sell her Maple account but what the heck... my Ultima Online account is just collecting dust now with 13 million in the bank and a stable full of white wyrms. Sentimentality had cost me being a few hundred dollars richer.

I shall be a cold-hearted bitch.

WTS WoW account. PST!!

So... once I was done helping Enphesis out, I steadied myself and dived right back onto the bed. I heard a soft off tune squeak upon impact and I got up bewildered to trace the source of the elusive squeakiness.

Oh... fuck me.

I had accidentally knee-d my cell phone when I crash landed on the bed and the force of impact had cracked the screen, causing 3/4 of it to black out into oblivion. Just when I picked it up to examine the damages, the phone resounded with a chirpy SMS tone. The message read:

\/ (cracklines) (cracklines)
/(cracklines)
(cracklines) ehe :-)

What the faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaark.

Ima go emo in a corner.

Well, you know one now.

Wrath of the Bitch Queen

2008-09-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

Wrath of the Bitch Queen

09 January 2005 - Asra was my first creation on Gorgonnash (aka GonnaCrash for the repeated server crashes after every patch) in World of Warcraft. Rogues have always been my fav for RPGs and it was no wonder I would roll this class first above the rest.

I recall the marathon run to Darnassus - an obstacle course of green spiders, panthers and furbies and getting raped by half naked harpies.

The first mob I thought that looked cute was a level 14 moonkin at Darkshore.

The first horde I saw was an undead swimming in the sea off the shores of Darkshore who was skull to me. I think he was trying to dock at Auberdine but the guards wouldn't let him lol. He looked like an illegal immigrant.

The first time I got pked was by an orc rogue who jumped me at Ashenvale. I ran until I died not knowing how to defend myself at that point of time.

I remember the first time I killed someone too. He was a lvl 40 warlock who jumped me in the tunnel to Loch Modan when I was just 33. We stood in front of each other, him spamming shadow bolts and me sinister strikes. We were both noobs but a rogue noob > warlock noob at close range.

It was a fun leveling experience.

10 February 2005 - Dark Ronin was born. We had just over 10 members but we grew over time to be considered as one of the top raiding guilds on GGN. Molten Core, Blackwing Lair, Twin Emps in Ahn Qiraj 40 and 1st tier of Naxx. I raided so much it was like a 2nd job. Meals were spent in front of the monitor spewing food into the microphone while giving instructions on vent. It seemed as though I was constantly eating that my guildies couldn't help but think I was some fat chick. (My guild note says FEED ME on the rogue and CAN'T STOP EATING on the priest.)

Asra at 60 in my all time fav BloodFang set + CTS & CotBD

Time went by. People came and went. Lost friends and made new ones. It's funny how a game can bring out the best and worst of humanity. People whom were of the 'same kind' turned their backs on us whereas the Aussies chose to stick by us. I don't know why but perhaps we must have been doing something right somewhere.

Weird thing was that each time drama exploded and people ragequit the guild, we'd always end up downing bosses the following week O.o I think it made us work harder and we probably wanted to prove a point as well. (I can think of the best song right now for this)

At first I was afraid, I was petrified

I kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you've done me wrong
I grew strong

I learnt how to carry on

I will survive man... yea yea...

First Nefarian kill - (Red & Blue)

Expansion approached and people stopped raiding. I drifted away from WoW for many weeks. Even after TBC launched, I didn't pick back up on the game until a month later due to some stupid earthquake shit somewhere. It was causing me serious lag issues and it wasn't until close to 2 months later before it was resolved. By then, majority of the guild had left to gay with some faggotass hypocrite but to be honest, I don't really blame them for leaving. Feudie and I were pretty much inactive throughout and there wasn't much of a leadership to path out a route for the guild direction. I'd be lying if I said I couldn't care less because the fact was it came as a huge blow for me. I guess to some people, years of friendships don't measure up to virtual epic loots. On the other hand though, I was kinda glad to see the emo drama queens and loot whores go.

The only thing that pissed me off loads was that some of them guys told us to either ditch the Aussies who weren't raiding much due to the differences in time zones, or they were gonna up and leave. Well, to this I sing...

Hit the road, Jack
And don't you come back no more no more no more no more
Hit the road, Jack
And don't you come back no more...
What you say?

Yet again, the Aussies stuck by us. (They really love us that much huh?) It helped to ease through the difficult period and we picked ourselves up again despite the tribulations, just like how we always did from previous falls. We refused to crumble in the face of adversity.

The guild is now 3+ years old and is one of the, or maybe even the oldest on the server. I have never once left for another nor have the rest of those who remain in it until today. It was home to us.

Throwing pumpkins at Effie in Ironforge

When ZA opened, we went in and gonged our way to Lynx on the very 1st raid, only to lose interest the following day when the new arena season started. That marked the end of my raiding days. I guess my drive for PvE content was not there anymore. The Aussies did a combined raid with Old Guard and they made good progress to Black Temple. I'm really happy for them.

As for me, I focused on the arena aspect of the game and became what my colleagues call a PvP junkie. After 3 years in the game, only arena could provide the adrenaline rush for me to want to continue playing. AI smackdown just don't cut it anymore.

Shiki, my old priest got given away to someone else by some misunderstanding and I didn't have the heart to demand for her back (I miss her though). I created a new priest called Ashura and played her mainly for arena. She hit 1873 for 2v2 with Locksmith's hunter (then Locksmith got transferred over to another server). Good thing for me was that Notus approached us to ask if we would like to play together and form a new 5v5 team. I had known Notus' druid (Equalize) when he used to raid with Equinoxite's weird China farmers raid pre-TBC. We roped in Danz & Enphesis and hit 1900+ before Season 3 ended.

However, just before S4 was released, Enphesis' account got banned by Blizzard for some reason. He had bought over the account from someone else and Blizzard didn't recognize it as a legal transaction. In the attempt to salvage the situation, Enphesis bought over Notus' paladin and we embarked on S4.

I can still remember some dumb conversations we had:

Enphesis: Holypaladin, a pally. He's holy.

Ashura: Like duh.

Notus: ROFL

Danz: Ah Shouuuuuuuuuuuu...

Asrael: Bloody hell squeeze sugar cane again.

We'd dance Tunak Tunak to pass wait times. Bash Squirrels. Zap frogs. Fish. Swim in the moonwell. Check out the AH. Share turban jokes. Whatever. We'd always have a few laughs. I was genuinely happy that I had found some team mates I could play arena with and we were doing reasonably well. Like what Enphesis likes to say, "Got synergy, synergy."

It was the only thing in WoW I looked forward to every week. Besides the Aussies, it was what was left of this game that was keeping me from leaving which I had wanted to do for a while now but never could really make a first step towards. There have been too many good memories and I had wanted more for keeps while it lasted. Because I know very well that nothing in this world lasts forever.

So here comes the best part. We peaked at 1980+ and just when we held hopes of being able to see a highlighted S4 weapon option on the goblin arena dude, Blizzard decides to send us their 'warn'est regards in the form of a 'love letter'.

__________________________________________________________________
Greetings,

Account Name: ARCTICASURA
Realm: Gorgonnash

Character Name: Ashura
Account Action: Warning
Offense: Arena Exploitation

Details: Player was discovered to have possibly participated in the exploitation of the Arena queue system with the result being advancement of characters on this or another account. A user of the above account may have recently been involved in actions deemed inappropriate for the World of Warcraft by the In-Game Support staff of Blizzard Entertainment. During the course of our investigation, we discovered that one of your character's Arena teams has queued in an irregular fashion.

Please review the World of Warcraft Terms of Use at http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/legal/termsofuse.html, which you accepted when you installed World of Warcraft and established the account(s). Section 5, Paragraph C details the rules related to game play and what is considered "fair" and what is considered a serious violation of these Terms of Use. While we do understand that there may not have been malicious intent, please keep in mind that exploitation is taken very seriously. Please also understand that this is merely a preventive measure, and further Arena exploitation of any kind could result in harsher penalties including, but not limited to removal of items, account suspension, or closure.

Any disputes or questions concerning this account warning can only be addressed by Account

Administration. To learn more about how Account Administration is able to assist you, please visit us at http://us.blizzard.com/support/article.xml?articleId=21505

Thank you for your understanding in this matter and respecting our position on all statutes within the World of Warcraft Terms of Use.

Regards,
Lisistast
Game Master
Blizzard Entertainment
http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/

__________________________________________________________________

W
T
F
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I swear on my fucking life that our team has worked our way up by legitimate means. We have beaten Nakata's & Robwarrior's teams & some other random high rated teams from other servers which fed us 15-22pts per game. The only team we haven't beaten was AOT's and we lost close to 100 rating.

Q times average between 5-10 mins as 5v5 teams are lesser compared to other brackets. Any teams that Q within this timeframe has a chance of meeting us. I can Q until my character goes afk in Darnassus or fish until my backpack's full of stupid seafood and sometimes the friggin' Q still won't pop. How on earth can we fix matches based on that? How does that qualify as win trading?

How many weeks of Q-ing for hours we have spent...

How many 'pop pop pop's we have reminded one another...

How many goddamn fucking games we have played...

I need to work to support myself. I ain't no fucking bum who doesn't own a job because I can live off government funds and play WoW all day. I don't have less than 50 ms like the Americans do.

Just cos I can only play on Monday nights and have to Q for an eternity and keep meeting the same old teams/ last min 10 games per week teams and keep squeezing juice out of them.

Just cos some assholic sore loser couldn't take losing 10 games of 1 pts to us every week.

Just cos I can't play everyday like a jobless WoW addict.

I get fucking reported as a win trader.

And they say I paid someone else to play my account for me to up my rating.

And they say we have not been honest with our friends.

And that perhaps one of us is selling the whole team out without the others' knowledge.

I say screw you assholes. Burn in high hell Douchebags.

B U L L F U C K I N G S H I T .

I got accused of an offense I did not commit. No reasons were given. No evidence to justify the charges. No guarantee that the same thing won't happen again even if we whack our way up to where we were, which we are capable of. It just dawned upon me how retardedly simple it was to pull a team down, just by saying a couple of things.

I think this pretty much sums it up.

This is where I wake up.

As much as I would like to write a reply email saying, 'Screw u fags I'm going to play Warhammer'. The truth is I am not. The guild has already all canceled their subscriptions in protest and they've all moved on to WH. Danny and Echie have been bugging for me me to join them but I think I will swear off MMORPGs.

Effie, Isobel, Echelon - You guys have been my pillar of support all these years. I do not know if the guild would have carried on so long without you guys. It means a lot to me and you guys are the best things that ever came out of this long dream. Keep in touch and hope to be able to put a face to the character one day. Till we meet.

Tatakai, Katariand, Inosomnia, Lunasky, Docnerdie, Locksmith, Ndazian, Doomie, Tric, Bloodlust, Fablox, Firelight & whatever zillions of Echelon's ever multiplying cousins (forgive me if I forgot anyone) - Thanks guys. I owe you all. Had a blast. (editted: I actually forgot Nano! I swear it wasn't deliberate and nothing to do with your druken stupor and leaving me at the airport)

Enphesis, Danz, Notus - It has been a great pleasure to know and get to play as a team together. It kept me alive in the game. I will always be proud to have been a part of it.

Some people will say it's just a small matter and that I'm over reacting. It is just a game. Perhaps.

Sports are games too but the whole world is wild about 22 men chasing a ball when they each have 2 of their own.

Game or not, big or small. All those years, it had been a part of my life.

It was a part of me.

Feels as though like I've lost something. Doesn't feel right somehow but at the same time, I feel liberated.

/WoWquit

It ends right here.